A lot of times, we think "When I graduate, then I will be happy." or "When I get married or start a family, then I will be happy." or "When I recover, then I will be happy."
Yesterday in Process Group one of the things we talked about was the importance of finding happiness in your life NOW - not waiting for the future to make you happy. Especially in recovery. Because you don't have to be RECOVERED to be happy. Yes, recovery sucks and is hard and is COMPLETE & TOTAL HELL! But one of the keys is to focus on things that make you happy and things that can take you and your mind away from the eating disorder. You don't have to wait until you are recovered to be happy!
Also, a lot of times we live in the past (the bad and painful memories of course) but we also live in good and fond memories of the past. Those are good to hold and keep in your heart -- but don't focus on them! Focus on the NOW.
And so we all had to go around the room and say something that makes us happy currently in our life. This was hard of course, considering most of us gals, at the moment, seem to have a STRONGER negative mind than positive mind. But we were all able to come up with something. The thing that I said was : My friends make me happy. I love to laugh and be silly with my friends (or family or co-workers, or anyone). I just love to laugh because there is no room for my eating disorder at that moment!
So that is something that I want to work on and apply more and more into my recovery and MY LIFE! I want to live in the present - not in the past or the future. So I will keep you updated on how this new goal of mine is going!