I am feeling especially overwhelmed and nervous this week. Because there are a lot of social things/work things that are centered around meals this week. And we all know that I don't do well with those kinds of things : (
On Wednesday at work we have our Spring Social that is going to be during the lunch hour that is going to have a ton of food.
On Thursday at work we have a special guest speaker coming, and we are going to have pizza, cookies, soda, ect.
On Friday there is a Luau for my singles ward and there is going to be a dinner.
I want to be normal, I want to enjoy the company and the food, I want to not let it stop me from being social!!! I hate how food isolates me and prevents me from going out and having fun. I hate it, but at the same time - when I try to face my fears and do these things, it's like the fear paralyzes me and I emotionally retreat back into my e.d. mind set. I want to go and have fun and eat like a normal person - and not just eat my "safe foods".
I am going to talk to my treatment team about it today in my sessions, and hopefully they can help me figure some stuff out... And if any of you have any advice - please, PLEASE I could sure use it!