I am feeling a bit more positive today...which is a really good thing! A few people have asked me what landed me in the hospital for the second time in less than two weeks, and it was from hypokalemia (very low potassium), severe dehydration, and an anxiety attack. No fun, I know - but it got me to realize that I need to put my recovery first and stop trying to be perfect and trying to please everyone around me. It's easier said than done, but I am willing to work on it because...well... I deserve it?? I don't really believe that I deserve it yet, but hopefully I will soon.
Here is a recap of the weekend:
Friday: worked half a day, had an appointment with my doctor and the cardiologist, then came home and slept.
Saturday: slept, slept, slept (oh yeah, and ate!)
Sunday: went to church, had dinner (and a good honest talk) with my parents, got to see my two adorable nieces!!! They can always put a smile on my face. :)
Then it is today. I am back at work, but it has been a pretty chill day...not too stressful thank goodness! I had an appointment this morning at St. Mark's Hospital to get a DEXA scan. The last one I had was two years ago, so I am hoping and praying that it hasn't gotten worse... Then I am off to meet with my therapist & dietician later this afternoon. We are going to talk about inpatient/IOP. But it's hard for me to agree to that because it's like "been there, done that...how is this time going to be any different?" But I guess that is something I can bring up today.