Last week sure had it's share of rollercoaster emotions! There were days when I felt okay and was like "You know, this recovery thing, I think I CAN do it!!!" But then there were days where I felt like I was emotionally going to flip out! And I know, this is all a part of recovery but "feeling my feelings" is still such a foreign and scary thing for me - so when I can't numb them out with my behaviors I struggle a ton with being able to deal with them rationally. But the good news to report is that I was able to get through the week with only a small amount of e.d. behaviors! But it was so hard! It was painful and terrifying to sit through the emotions, because they don't go away, they last and last and last... - I don't like it at all!
But I did it and I am really proud of myself!