Wednesday, December 9, 2009

my fingers are crossed!!

I have my first appointment with my new medical doctor tomorrow morning. I did end up firing my doctor before she fired me - which was inevitable. But when my therapist found out about it, he was not feeling too comfortable with the situation. He told me that I had to find a new doctor that week because he was not going to be, and I am quoting him, "my death therapist". Geez, isn't that a little harsh??? : ( 

Anyways, I did find one and she happens to be one of the best e.d. specialists in the state so I am both excited and extremely nervous to see her tomorrow. This was the soonest appointment I could get so it's been a month since I have seen a doctor - and that also makes me nervous to see what my vitals and blood work are going to be, ugh... But I hope that she won't reject me too because I have had enough of that for a while. But I am really struggling right now with my behaviors and therefore, my health. I know I need a good doctor who is going to be able to help me reach and maintain a healthy body. That is the goal and I am trying to stay positive about this whole recovery thing right now!

I hope that this doctor will accept me as a patient without trying to force me into inpatient or the hospital. I am tired of everyone continually telling me that is where I need to be! I just need a good doctor who will help me and support me on an outpatient basis!!


3 comments:

  1. Oh Jennabee I'll keep my fingers crossed and keep you in my prayers tonight and always. I love ya girl! Good luck tomorrow.

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  2. hey- just wanted to say that you don't know me but I have been reading your blog (I found it through marylynns). I used to live in UT and have been to the Center for Change. I just wanted to say that I hope you can fight this, and I hope you get the care that you need from this new doctor. Take care!

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  3. I'm glad that your appointment went well on Thursday. I have faith in your ability to recover. I also have faith that this new doctor will be good for you! BASICALLY... I just have faith. In you! In how great of a gal you are! And in what an amazing bad-ass seamstress/fashion designer you are going to be! Because... I know it's your true passion... and that you aren't doing it for ED reasons. I HAVE FAITH Because you deserve to have someone having faith in you!

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