I have my first appointment with my new medical doctor tomorrow morning. I did end up firing my doctor before she fired me - which was inevitable. But when my therapist found out about it, he was not feeling too comfortable with the situation. He told me that I had to find a new doctor that week because he was not going to be, and I am quoting him, "my death therapist". Geez, isn't that a little harsh??? : (
Anyways, I did find one and she happens to be one of the best e.d. specialists in the state so I am both excited and extremely nervous to see her tomorrow. This was the soonest appointment I could get so it's been a month since I have seen a doctor - and that also makes me nervous to see what my vitals and blood work are going to be, ugh... But I hope that she won't reject me too because I have had enough of that for a while. But I am really struggling right now with my behaviors and therefore, my health. I know I need a good doctor who is going to be able to help me reach and maintain a healthy body. That is the goal and I am trying to stay positive about this whole recovery thing right now!
I hope that this doctor will accept me as a patient without trying to force me into inpatient or the hospital. I am tired of everyone continually telling me that is where I need to be! I just need a good doctor who will help me and support me on an outpatient basis!!