Tuesday, February 9, 2010
MY HAPPY LIST (for the week)
1- I am praying daily; and not just for other people, but I am starting to believe that I deserve to be included in these prayers also.
2- I have been able to gain a few pounds over this past month. (yes jenn, this is a positive thing!! And you need to keep it up and keep gaining those pounds! Because weight loss and even weight maintainance are not options for you right now! And deep down you know this - so don't let your ed sneak in and continue to convince you otherwise! please!!)
3- I am excited to hang out with two of my pals tomorrow after group and partake in the yummy goodness that is Jamba Juice!
4- Slowly but surely, my spirituality is finding its way back into my life.
5- I am being more pro-active and brave in my search for a new job.
6- I am really working hard on the inner issues that I like to avoid in therapy/treatment. (I would tell you how much it sucks and how scary it is to face these things - but this is a positive list!!!)
7- I have started to exercise again, much to the worry of the "professionals" BUT I have managed to keep it at a very low-pace (meaning it hasn't gotten out of control or obsessive and I am being careful).
8- I am trying to be more honest with my parents, treatment team, ect. I know they can't help me if I lie about behaviors I am or am not engaging in. So, even though I know there will be consequences, I am trying to keep that honest communication open with them. Trying is the key word here.
9- I am helping my Grandma out with some geneology stuff. (this has been an on-going project). I like helping her out because I love her and I know that she appreciates it.
10- I am going to start volunteering again!, hopefully starting this week or next week. I was volunteering a couple days a week at a certain hospital but then ended up in the ICU of that hospital because my body started shutting down, and I nearly died (thanks ED) and ended up being there for 8 days. Then when I was discharged, it took a couple months for me to get more stable health wise. I was supposed to call and start up again in December but after everything that happened, I felt embarrassed that I would run into all of the people who knew about my "situation" (why did I have to be admitted to that hospital!?)...so... I kept putting it off and putting it off - until last week when I made the call. Better late than never right? She was out of the office last week so I left a message and I am waiting for her to call me back. I am excited to start volunteering again but it's going to be hard to try to avoid all the doctors and nurses who know about me and my "troubles".