Sunday, April 4, 2010

I do eat...

I do eat... I do!!... at least I try to... I promise! I don't want people to think that I don't ever eat... (I would be back in the hospital if that were the case). I am just tired of all this emotional drama and I wonder if I will ever have a healthy relationship with food or if I will always be crippled with fear, anxiety, and guilt and forever struggle to cope (and obsess) about everything I put into my mouth...

4 comments:

  1. It is possible to have a good relationship with food...I never thought so either, until this year, and every time I conquer a new challenge, eat a new food, I discover that life beyond the ED is very tasty, happy, and above all, achievable.

    You can and will get there :-)

    Sarah x

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  2. I also think it's possible and it really is hard sometimes to trust that you will be okay, that you will be fine. I am too scared about the place I am in but I know it will get easier with time.
    *hugs*
    Sarah

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  3. we have no idea where we will end up but what we can do is start living, eating, and thinking along the lines of where our future will take us and where our potential is. eating is a huge part of that. the more living, experiencing, and fighting against stupid thoughts we do the more LIVING we can experience...in time it turns into a life...and hopefully a life not based around food

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  4. I think it is possible and you will get there. But it takes time. And the only way to do it is to keep eating as hard as that is.

    xoxo I'm thinking about you--take care of yourself!

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