Thursday, August 4, 2011

striving to be an intuitive eater

Intuitive eating is still a concept that I am working every day on becoming more comfortable with. I still have my bad days, the days I struggle with it... but I am getting closer every day. When it was first introduced to me from my treatment team... It straight up terrified me! I thought that there was no way I would EVER be able to trust my body and eat intuitively. Because that meant I would have to let go of the control I was desperately trying to hold on to. It sounded impossible! My eating disorder was all I knew...and now people were expecting me to just let go of that and trust them, trust my body, and trust this foreign (fear & anxiety inducing!) concept called intuitive eating? "No way... I can't!!" And for a long time, that was something I never thought I could do. I thought I would be forever trapped, and forever controlled by the eating disorder.

Disordered Eating is: 
• Rigid
• Dictated by rules
• Ignores physical cues for eating
• Very judgmental and associated with feelings of guilt and shame
• Cues to eat or not eat are based on external factors or from the head, not the body

Intuitive Eating is:

 • Flexible
• Dictated by whether or not y
ou are hungry or full
• Allows you to enjoy a wide-variety of foods, without guilt or shame
• Cues to eat are largely based on your physical need and cravings for certain types of food

It took a long time, lots of ups and downs, steps forwards and steps backwards, but I am becoming more of an intuitive eater every day. It's still a process, I still have a ways to go - but I am getting there. And that's the important thing. And one of the biggest changes I have noticed is that I am no longer fearful of it. I welcome it with open arms. Naturally, there still are those times when I struggle, and the ed convinces me to revert back to my old eating habits... but I try to not let that discourage me. I remind myself to "do the next right thing" and try to get back on track the best I can. I am more aware, I know better now, and I am strong enough in my recovery to know that the best way for me to feel happy, healthy, & free is to continue striving for the goal of becoming an intuitive eater. I know I will get there! And all of you who are also fighting every single day to break free from the tight - deadly - hold that your ed has on you... I know you will get there too. I truly believe that. With all my heart.


  1. Cheering you on every day girl! It's all about taking steps in the right direction. HUGS! :)

  2. I don't struggle with anorexia or MIA I do by the way struggle with binge eating. Are there any books or reading you would recommend to someone who could benefit from intuitive eating?
    If so please share them with me. Thanks

  3. I am glad you are learning to "hear" your body and as much as you believe in all of us, we believe in you too xxxx

  4. I definitely agree that it is a learning process. Learning to trust oneself... and to "hear" your body and what it really needs. to REALLY hear it. Take the small victories. Every day you get closer is a small victory worth celebrating.

    Here's to getting there, right?