Saturday, March 28, 2015

Wednesday, March 25, 2015

little me

I heard this song the other day and it really hit home with me.
It reminded me a lot of the feelings I felt when I was a young girl.
The confusion, the sensitivity, the insecurity, feeling lost and ignored in the "crowd".

I am glad that I have been able to heal, to let go, and become a stronger person
But there are times, often, when those old memories and feelings come back.
I think they will always be there inside of me
But I am glad that there are times when I can forgive
When I can believe
When I can love myself
When... I know that I am enough just the way I am

I don't feel these things all the time (I wish I did) but there are moments
More often than it used to be
That I can truly believe these things about myself
And I hope that the more I recover, the more I grow, the more I experience,
The more I can let that little girl inside of me heal.

 



Friday, March 20, 2015

one chapter ending and a new one beginning

I am glad that I have been able to learn over the years to adapt pretty well to change because that seems to be something that happens often in my life.  I don't mind change (most of the time) and I am glad that it is something I can cope pretty well with, and even look forward to.  Because there have been A LOT of changes during the past couple months.  But I am so happy and excited about things and I feel it's gonna be a good year!

Brian and I decided that it was time to move on from our job and where we were living.  We were planning on moving out this summer but decided to do it a few months earlier instead.  So we moved into a basement apartment near both of our parents houses (our parents live less than 10 minutes away from each other which is kinda cool) and I went back to my old job. I stayed as PRN at my old job and helped out here and there because I knew the job at Milestone was just going to be temporary and I was hoping to possibly go back to it after we left Milestone, so I was glad that it worked out that way.  It is a good stable job, I feel comfortable and at home there, and I enjoy it for the most part.  It keeps me busy and even though it can be stressful at times its nothing like the hectic life at the job I was doing these past 10 months. But I learned SO much from that experience and I am glad I did it despite the challenging and stressful things that were involved with the job.  It's also really nice to be able to "go home" and not live at the place we work.  That was hard sometimes.  And Brian's plan at the moment is to focus a lot more on school (something he had to put on hold for a lot of the 2 & 1/2 years that he was working at that job) and he is going to try to finish up this summer hopefully, and is looking at other job opportunities in the social work field.  And taking a little bit of a breather since he has worked 7 days a week, on call 24/7 for the past 2 & 1/2 years with no days off except for our wedding/honeymoon, and a weekend away for his birthday.  I think he deserves a little bit of downtime to just focus on finishing up school for a few months.

We moved into our new place at the beginning of March and it has been SO nice!!  We have more space, more privacy, and we don't live where we work!  We can relax at home and not feel like we are still on the clock or working all hours of the day.  One chapter has ended and a new one is beginning.  And there are some other exciting things happening this year that I will share when the time is right  :)

The soccer season is here again!!!

I couldn't resist getting a picture of Brian with his backpack ;)

Saying goodbye to the first place Brian and I lived together.

Yesterday I got an "excited for Spring to be here" haircut.

Anyways, I just wanted to update my blog if anyone out there still reads it and hopefully now that I have more time, I will be able to read everyone's blogs more and write a lot more on this one.  But in the meantime, here are some pictures from the past couple months to end this update with.  I hope everyone is doing well and enjoying the first day of spring! <3